Okay, so I lied. That last entry wasn't the assignment from yesterday. It was the assignment from two days ago. Woops. The assignment from yesterday I also didn't do. So, I'll do it now, too. It reads as follows:

In your diary, spend a few minutes making a list of "love possibilities." List places and situations where you might be able to make such contacts, or people who might help you meet potential dates, or people you might like to date. Promise yourself that you will try ONE of these possibilities this week.

Okay, so, places and situations where I might meet people could include swim meets (other coaches, parents, adults involved with age group swimming, or master's meets, where all the swimmers are possibilities if they're not married or otherwise involved) (hey! Actually, that's a new one, I hadn't thought about master's meets being opportunities...that's a good one!); I could also go to parties or get-togethers more, like with Sonya or Sabina or other friends who invite me places...hence my pushing myself to go to the Halloween party last week; then there's the online dating thing, which also offers in-person speed dating or other get-togethers for singles my age. I suppose I could go to one of those things, or I could resolve to start writing people again each day (well, it's a possiblity, at least). I could also try to go to more swim clinics, and oh! the gym! I forgot about the gym! I could go to the gym more often...I went last night after work, which is unusual (usually I go mid-day, when it's not as crowded), and it was FULL of hot men and women! It was like an eyecandy fest...to the point where I felt almost giddy on the treadmill...where did all those beautiful people come from?! I suppose I could go to more classes, where people tend to chat more before and after the class, that sort of thing. And then, of course, there's school, but I'm not sure that's the best situation to think of when thinking of dating. Most of the other profs there are at least 30 years older than I am, or they're young hip things who are my age but who aren't remotely attractive to me for myriad reasons. And there's not much chance for an adjunct like me to branch out into other departments...and I'm NOT going to date my students (despite the teensiest of crushes on one student in each class...hee). Other than that, I can't think of other situations, unless someone tries to set me up on a date, which makes me a little uncomfortable, but then again, it all makes me uncomfortable, so wtf?

Contacts or people who might help me with this? Well, there's DD, who's already appointed herself Twids' Matchmaker (and continues to encourage me to ask out BridgeBoy, much to my ethics protests), and there's Sonya, who I think is finally starting to realize she could be more helpful in that arena (especially after I railed on her on Halloween after she made the "there are single people here who can stay late, but we're taken and need to go home" comment...grrr), and honestly? I'm not really sure who else there is. I'm not really into having people "help" me with this. I mean, I'll ask my pals to gage certain signs or signals (or lack thereof) for me when I need a second or third opinion, but I'm not really big into having people really involved in my love life (or, what I refer to as My Private Life). So, although I've asked for help more recently (I've actually started voicing my desire to start dating again...this is HUGE), I'm not incredibly interested in having a whole bunch of people out there on the prowl on my behalf.

Potential dates or people I'd like to date? Hrm. Well, there's BridgeBoy, but I'm not likely to ask him out. Nor am I likely to ask the BoyStudent in the one class or the GirlStudent in the other. There's the coach on the other team who I spent a bunch of time with this past weekend and whom I adore...but I'm not sure I could do anything there, since Kim's had a crush on him for years and would probably take out a contract on my life if I made a go for him. (Didn't I write about that? Now that I think about it, I don't think I did because it was over the weekend and I was dead tired when I got home and wound up not writing anything about it. Damn. I'll hae to write about all that later. It was a good weekend.) Other than that, there really are no prospects. (Locally, that is.) I could keep checking the online profiles, of course, for new prospects on a daily basis.

Okay, now to promise myself I'll try one of these possibilities this week. Does asking BridgeBoy to coffee to talk over pool plans this past Tuesday count as making one attempt this week? I think it should, quite honestly, because it took a lot for me to come up with that shit and then to actually ask it. And, it did wind up giving me a 15 minute 1-on-1 conversation with him right there on the deck (though, no concrete plans for coffee), which was nice. I would followed up this morning, but he didn't show. If that doesn't count, does that mean I have to do something else, too, by the end of this week? Fuck it, I'm going to say that counts, and then resolve to make another attempt or try another "possibility" next week. Deal? Thanks.

Okee doke. I think that's about all I can stand in terms of talking about my private life for today. Now on to grading more goddamned papers....

Posted by twids at 8:38 am