I'm being set up on a date tomorrow. Tonight I went with DD and Mia to the Comedy & Magic Club, which was great even though I was sorta tired. I laughed my ass off for an hour straight, and I really needed to do that.

I don't feel good about the way I look right now. I was starting to, but I'm back to not feelng good. I feel slovenly and like my face is sort of a mess. I wish I could feel better about it, but I just don't. I'm hoping I can just keep going to the gym and eventually feel like I look okay in clothes again.

But tomorrow, I'm going to a very chic sushi place in LA to meet Idabelle, who I don't even like, and the girl she wants to set me up with.

I have no fucking clue how I got myself into this. This is a woman who I like for about five minutes each time I see her, and then who I start to hate with increasing passion as each minute past 5 ticks by. She was talking some shit about setting me up with this girl last week when I saw her at a meeting. I wasn't paying much attention to her, trying not to kill her, and I guess I sort of nodded and said, "Uh huh, sure, right!"

Then she called again when I was home (and like an asshole I picked up the phone), and asked me over to her place this coming Tuesday to check out her husband and her dog, so that I might be able to housesit for them all when the two humans go back east for vacation. I figured, housesitting is a pretty good gig when yo'ure living with your parents. So fine, I'll go and meet the husband and the canine.

But then she called again, and she followed up on the goddamned date. And what was I supposed to say? So she's bringing this girl to this sushi place and she needs me there at 8:30. To meet this girl. Because she wants to see me with someone.

I have a few problems with this whole thing and I don't even know where to begin with it. The first one is that I'm in a guy phase right now, and I really don't want to meet a new girl.

But I can't really SAY that, because Ii'm going to have to explain it, and I HATE, and I mean HATE having to explain my sexual preferences/attraction phases to people. Especially people I don't even like, for chrissakes.

So on top of that, I don't want to schlep out to the middle of LA to meet someone I don't know and to spend time with someone I don't really like, and to eat food I don't want to eat (I'm very picky about sushi and hate spending $20 for four pieces...it's LA bullshit and I don't play that crap for anyone, much less a woman I'm not inerested in meeting).

Whatever. I don't want to deal with it, but then again, I don't want to NOT go and then kick myself for not putting myself out there. But then, what the fuck am I doing going somewhere I don't want to go spending money I don't have on something I don't want to meet someone I don't want to fuck?

Ugh. I should turn this around and be positive about it. Okay, let's rewind and try:

Wahoo! Tomorrow I get to get up early, coach a long workout, teach a lesson (the payment for which goes directly to me tomorrow), and then hit the gym! I can't wait to go to the gym! I get to take my time and do an extra long workout...arms and cardio...and I'm even thinking of doing the workout I wrote for the masters the other day that they whined and cried about so much. Wahoo! And then, THEN, I get to go out on a REAL LA DATE! Wahoo!!! I get to meet a well-rounded, successfull, politically involved woman who may actually become a romantic interest! Wahoo!!!!!

Can you smell the enthusiasm? Well, actually, I really am excited about the gym part.

So, there you have it. I'm genuinely excited about at least one part of tomorrow. Wahoo.

Posted by twids at 10:46 pm